Why do I bother

Hey y'all... I'm back for another blog. This song is another I wrote called "Why do I bother". Here's what it's about.

Several months ago, a good friend of my turned their back on me and began to gossip about me, and to completely shut me out. I wrote a different song about it at the time, but was going through the lyrics about a month ago and thought to myself, these words aren't very good. (All my friends liked them, but I had just felt they weren't mature enough.) So I wrote a different song about the exact same thing, just different words and melody. I feel like these lyrics are much better than the previous ones.

Of course, all of the drama has been sorted out now-we're good friends today. But I will go through a little bit of what happened.

I met this person when I first moved to Norman (I was in fifth grade at the time). He was the first to really be outgoing towards me and be friendly. We quickly became good friends. However, he was a grade under me so when I went into the youth group program he stayed behind. After he came into the youth group (my seventh grade year),we began to catch up because we hadn't seen each other hardly at all. However, people began noticing, "Hey, she's a girl and he's a boy... that means they are dating." So they started to tease us. It wasn't bad at first, but to avoid any serious drama we didn't talk in public much. We mainly talked over the phone. Of course, people found out about our silly conversations and it began to get very inappropriate. At this point it just gets foggy to me but my understanding of his side is that he didn't want to put up with it and for me to be embarrassed so he stopped associating with me entirely. We eventually told our youth pastor (I was homeschool at the time and this was at a church) who cleaned it up. People stopped teasing him about it, but they continued to tease me, it just was more "innocent" this time. We still did not see each other much but we did talk over the phone still frequently. However, a few moths later, he completely disassociated with me and never made it clear why. I wrote the first song and sent him some of the words as a protest to get him to answer. Just to shut me up, he accused me of being "rude" and "immature", which honestly he IS the most immature person on this earth. It all eventually (slowly) cleared up. However I think the only reason he stopped is because he found out I was moving here, and he didn't want to ruin his "perfect image". But we still talk a decent amount and have both dropped it.

The only reason I wrote this song, was because I wanted a more mature and "updated" version of the song. The other one still exists, if asked to do so I might upload it. Also I can write a song for someone, if just given a topic.

The link is below:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eM5NkfpQudU